I've waited,
and He's answered.
I'm so grateful to Him for that.
And this victory belongs to You, Almighty Lord,
as You have helped me overcome so much.
Thank You, Lord.

"Saviour, worthy of honour and glory,
worthy of all our praise, for You overcame.
Jesus, awesome in power forever,
awesome and great is Your name,
You overcame"

My keyboard is failing me.
Haha, nothing much happened today.
Ms Cheng didn't come in for History, that was weird.
Habi yesterday, was funny and cute :D
SHE ACCEPTED YI SHENG.
SO HAPPY EH :D
And there was a new dog!
Her/his name is unclear.
it's either Allison or Edison.
But he/she's a mini Habi!
Oh man, 2i was squealing! :D
(Including me, heh)
I'm supposed to be studying right now,
but who actually gives a damn right?
I'm going to poly tmr :D
I'VE BEEN PROMOTED TO PROFESSOR OF CHEMISTRY.
:D
Since I'm a chemistry genius, of course (;
(Fum's words, not mine)
Anyway, I've been rubbing my eyes since 3.30 when tuition started.
Probably swollen already.
That's the fourth time in the past two months.
Speaking of eyes,
I got specs yesterday!
They look exactly like my old pair, apart from the different colour.
:D
SO PRETTY I LOVE IT.
Winnie is such a great masseuse (sp?)
she gave me like, the best massage I ever got in my life.
And a head massage too.
That girl has bionic fingers.
I'm happy.
Cause I just found out that there's a Paramore song on the new album, where Hayley and Josh sing back and forth. Taylor's gonna play alot more lead guitar, cause JOSH HAS ALOT OF SINGING PARTS! JOSHUA FARRO'S SINGING VOICE. IS. SO. SEXY.
Have you heard his singing voice?
Go listen to Franklin!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
I feel neither older, wiser or more mature.
I had an uneventful birthday,
but thanks to those who wished me! :D
I shall name the people in order of wishing!

I went shopping today.
WOAH RIGHT :D
I bought some pretty shorts,
and very pretty blouses.
Yay! :D

I'm sick and tired, of being sick and tired;

Hey ya'll, it's a Friday night.
I'm sitting at my computer, which has been moved out my family room.
To make way for...
(drumroll please)
MY DRUM SET.
WOOHOOOHOOOO :D
Oh brb, need to inject my finger.
Mutilate it with a needle.
Yes, didn't you know?
I'm taking drugs.
And ironically, I just finished reading Pastor Glenn's book.
It's an awesome book :D
Now I'm about to read The Heavenly Man.
Then after, I'll read Coraline.
I hate MrsH, how could she just flash the piece of paper like that?
Hasn't she heard of personal privacy?
Now most people know I have It.
My mood just got lifted <3
HAHAHAHA BY MY HILARIOUS JUNIOR.
THE MOST HILARIOUS EVER.

SHE JUST ASKED ME WHY CONDOMS HAVE FLAVOUR.
OH MY FUM,
GOODBYE WORLD.

I'm not gonna act like the last post was just a moment of angst.
It was more than angst.
It was grief, anger, hysteria.
I'm losing one of my closest friends,
I nearly lost one,
and well, let's face it, my health is failing.
No, not a terminal illness, but it might as well be.
I hate what's happening.
So much.
It's like being hit with one big blow in the eye.
And my eye is currently swelling, like it does every month.
I've been banned from CIP till my exams finish.
I feel so guilty cause I'm the one preventing Ina from getting her CIP hours.
I thought I could trust my tutor,
but I guess not.
I'm now having a migraine.
We had our self defence test today.
I got hit in my crotch by dearest Theo.
Ouchie.
I think we passed.
But it was after,
when Ms Chong told us her story.
It was so sad, I thought she was gonna cry.
I think it's pretty personal, so I won't tell it here.


it's hard to see the pain behind the mask;

She leaves the classroom and retrieves her valuables from the locker that she shares with a friend. After all, the locker rentals are incredibly overpriced. Too overpriced, in fact, for her to even consider renting it by herself. She begins to walk down the stairs alone, as she does every day. Today, she would be going for a doctors appointment at Alexandra Hospital. She prefers not to reveal the reason behind it, a very personal thing indeed.

She waits in the concourse for her mother to come pick her up. Her friends greet her with a hello and walk by, some of them ignore her completely. She feels the sting of rejection, but she's used to being ignored by her closest friends. Oh, the joys of friendship. She eventually settles into playing TapTapRevenge2 on her iPod Touch with her bud, Sara, but their game is cut short when she spots her mother's car.

Arriving at Alexandra Hospital, she proceeds to get her finger pricked and blood tested for her sugar level. She waits and waits and waits for results, and is called into the nurse's room. It's time. She is greeted with horrible news. Her sugar is still sky high. Even higher than before. She is puzzled and dejected. She had tried so hard. She curses herself in her head. "Why is it so high?", "I exercised and I cut down on my sugary stuff!" She suspects it was her flu that affected the reading. Yes, of course, it was the flu. The nurse isn't convinced though, and increases her medication. A new medicine for her overworked liver. Hello, liver failure! You're early in this life... Her mother desperately tries to explain that it was the flu that made the readings inaccurate, and also, the flu prevented her from exercising as much as she had wanted to. The nurse remains unconvinced.

She leaves the hospital feeling as depressed as ever. Her mother had already long given up on her condition. She smses Fum, who tells her that everything'll be fine, and that God is there for her. She believes her. She believes Him. She will wait for Him to make everything better. She turns on her iPod, and decides to listen to You'll Come by Hillsong. She smiles at the fact that the song is speaking to her. "I have decided, I have resolved, to wait upon You, Lord."

And that's just what she'll do.

with hair as black as night, her skin a dead pearly white;

It's my 200th post.
Like whoaaaa.
Too bad it isn't gonna be a happy post.
Would anyone like to guess my planned schedule for the coming week?
I'll tell you right now
D:
Monday: Doctor's Appointment & Drum Buyage
Tuesday: Cancelled Chinese Tuition (took me forever to change dates) and GB drum worship practice.
Wednesday: GB heh.
Thursday: Eye appointment, have yet to cancel chem tuition.
Friday: Rescheduled Chinese tuition (unconfirmed, but hopefully can make it on saturday, cause I have CIP. And I think Na will kill me if I don't go)
Saturday: Drums and possible rescheduled chinese tuition
What a fucking great week, isn't it?
And it's brilliant that all my tuition days are disrupted by all the stupid appointments and shit.
Might as well kill me now..
That'll be so much easier.
No need to spend anymore money on the appointments.
And save money by not buying drums.
I considered everything.
Then I remembered the beginning of this year.
When I first went to COOS.
The Lord spoke to me through the songs.
Overcome by Desperation Band.
He brought me through my darkest period of this year
with the help of that particular song..
Lighter note, had a very tiring CIP day.
woke up super early, met fum at Jacob Ballas (Ball less) Children's Garden. (10am)
Did our first hour, spent half an hour waiting for people to approach us for the tour,
and spent the other half guiding two JC girls.
They were trying to do their own CIP.
Heh.
Bussed back to Fum's house.
Lazed around
went haato
went back to JBCG for second shift at 5pm.
Gave a tour to this Caucasian family.
The guy was super cute hahaha
he was giving us the feedback
then he started reading out the questions.
Like "The guides were clear in their explanation" or something like that,
then he'll be like "disagree" and smile at us.
Turns out everything was ticked with strongly agree.
His wife was really nice too.
So Fum and I got super alot of good feedback
yeaaaahh
that's about it.
______
you've totally proven me wrong today.
All the more reason to be ignoring you,
since you won't even care to talk to me nicely.
What an awesome friend you are.
It just proves how much I matter to you;
I don't.
So much for being a friend, Iguana.
Try to figure out your bloody codename.
Well, guess what, your letters are in it.

Would anyone realise, I lived a lie;

I am accustomed to blog every alternate day,
so I shall blog today and maybe for yesterday.
I had my five items pft test today.
I've never did so badly for pft before, heh.
So sadddddd
my standing broad jump was awful.
sit and reach was a joke.
sit ups, omg fum actually beat me.
pullups, ok not too bad, but did more last year.
shuttle run was screwed up,
we were supposed to have two tries for it,
but Mrs Chitra didn't give it to us.
I wanted to retry cause I slipped up the block in my hand,
and it delayed me for at least one second.
I could've gotten at least 10 seconds, but I got 11+
damn pft, gah.
freakin' ruined my day.
After the whole thing,
went home,
went to Ger Liau's!
Sara was there hahaha,
we just sat there.
Sara loved my itouch,
I was doing my chem tuition homework,
and Ger was eating while watching some chinese show.
Hahahaha
So fun :D
it kinda cheered me up alot.
Oh and The Princess Bride is awesome,
LOVE WESTLEY :D
And The Rock is really cool.
I like him in The Game Plan.
Sleep time.
drums tmr.
I'm playing What I've Done by Linkin Park! :D

Hey man, you know, what's up, too slow.
Feels like I'm staring at the sun.
You get high, you get low, don't let your ego
I've been staring at the sun, staring at the sun
_______

I was gonna blog yesterday,
but the comp crashed once again.
Then the internet went whack.
Then I just couldn't be bothered and I went to sleep.
Heh.
Some very interesting things happened yesterday.
One.
I fell,
while going up the stairs.
Lara describes it as..
this BOOM BOOM BOOM sound.
Hahaha.
It really was though.
I finally found out why I fell.
My shoes. gosh, they were humongous.
And my legs were aching so badly that it hurt to lift them.
So I guess I didn't lift them high enough,
and it just got stuck on a step..
and you know what happens next.
it hurt quite alot.
HAHA.
my legs aren't painful anymore.
they're excruciatingly painful.
I can't walk at all, and a simple slap on the thigh hurts like hell
UGH D:
Today was so gloomy and stressful =\
We had two freaking tests.
Geog and History.
Like wth.
And then it started to rain, and it was so coldddd.
):
Such a sad day.
And it was chinese filled too,
cause of the stupid chinese speech competition.
gtg, mum's got some viewing thingy.
argh.
i really wanted to sleep.
______
it's happening again.
What's to become of our friendship?
Every conversation we have ends in conflict.
It's getting so hard to talk to you.
Which is why I don't anymore.

it's all about the wordplay;
[JasonMraz]

12/4/09
HEEEEYYYYYYYYYOOOOO
WASSUP YOO
HAPPY EASTER, PEOPLE!
Jesus died on the cross for our sins on this day,
and we should forget all the bunnies and the stupid chocolate eggs,
and focus on the real meaning of Easter.
:D
Well, yesterday was enrolment service
It was actually pretty fun.
Hahaha, parade was kinda cool and all.
Haven't participated in a parade since P6.
Mrs Yee came back! (:
The sec 2s made a video with testimonials from everyone for her
(which I don't remember mine being written, but it was up anyway)
and we (they: Christelle, Siyue, EstherMak? i think) made a card of messages!
Mrs Tay was so cute haha with her intro of mrs yee.
Oh and Ms Yang was chosen by Mrs Yee?
Bad choice ):

OH AND
HAPPY [BELATED] BIRTHDAY
DEAREST SARA SIM :D
(you'll never read this, but..)
I LOVE YOU DEAR :D
________

13/4
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart;
[BoysLikeGirls]

Well, my comp crashed yesterday,
and I couldn't turn it on again till after dinner.
Heh.
couldn't be bothered to blog after that.
Today was the dreaded 2.4km run.
And like. woah. my legs are so painful now ):
We started off pretty smooth.
I was in first place cause I sprinted off.
Then like the third round, i began to slow down.
4-6 slowed down even more, walked quite alot.
7 - 8 died, walked, and jogged slowly.
All in all, I managed to get 4th position out of 17 peeps,
with a timing of 15minutes.
I jumped two spots, WHOA :D
and I improved by one minute!
After I finished, I almost fainted.
I felt so drained, and my head was on fire.
I almost collapsed and I couldn't walk properly eh ):
LEGS WERE SO DAMN NUMB.
Thanks Phoebe and Tabitha who helped me :D
I'm 70% convinced that I currently have a fever.
And I tightened my braces today.
Double pain, eh D:
Oh and chapel was the follow up on DJW.
WE GOT PASTOR GLENN AGAIN! :D
I WAS SO HAPPY
HAHAHA
(and so was GerT :D)
Oh oh, he was telling us such a scary story ):
about his dog!
He tried to nailclipper his dog's nails.
And well, let's just say he cut more than the nail.
Much more than the nail.
AND I HAVE TO GO!
BYEBYE
P.S. I'm pissy at you.

I just successfully killed my own birthday.
I'm not gonna receive anything from my parents.
Cause I didn't wake up this morning.
Ugh.
I was awoken at 10am this morning by my dad telling me that they wanted to go and select my acoustic drum set at Yamaha. I told him that it was my only day to sleep and that I really needed sleep. At least 12 hours of it. I slept at 1 last night, so I wanted to sleep till 1, and I went back to sleep. So, like, at 12 something, I woke up. And my dad started telling me how disappointed he was in me, that i kept them waiting and everything. I was thinking.. you didn't even tell me I had to go with you, I thought you got the hint that i didn't want to go when I went back to sleep. So they left the house, but not before making it super obvious that I "take them for granted" and they weren't going to get me my drum set anymore. I'm probably gonna get grounded/killed later when they get home.
I don't even like yamaha, my drum teacher already gave me his friend's contact. His friend sells some really awesome drums, with cymbals as good as Zildjian, and cheaper too.
Heh goodbye world.

_________
"hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black"
Evanescence - My Last Breath

I'M HAPPY (and tired)
but I'm so very happy for my dear Geraldine Tan.
(>http://nostalgiaavenue.blogspot.com<)
She experienced the Lord today,
and I'm so very happy for her.
It really reminds me of my experience when I experienced Him.
Uh you can go find it if you want.
It's in Feb 2009 archive.
Find the post entitled "i want to hold the hand that holds the world"
It was DJW this week.
(Discover Jesus Week)
and I've never enjoyed it so much.
The worship, the message, it was kinda powerful for me.
The speaker, Pastor Glenn was a youth pastor at COOS,
and he's awesome! :D
He was such an engaging speaker, I never fell asleep once!
To tell you the truth, before i started going to church,
I never thought of worship as more than a singing session,
and I wouldn't even care to sing.
But my experience at COOS, and going to church and everything,
I've begun to see what each worship session holds,
and I've begun to actually listen to the messages.
I just finished reading "Escape To Morning",
a really awesome Christian/Romance/Action fiction.
It was pretty inspiring,
It said that if you wanted to change,
you have to take the step forward,
and day by day, God will guide you toward change.
He will change you into the person He wants you to be.
(:
Some things happened in school today:
Changed places again - finally sitting near Fum.
& Agnes, Lara, Melanie, Melisa, Winnie.
and they expect us not to talk?
I miss my door ):
People went for Tennis to support - Khee competed,
I couldn't go, cause had GB. SO GUAI RIGHT.
But yeah, they got dismissed at 1pm,
so we slacked for an hour.
The International Friendship day was a joke.
Boringggggggg
GB was so tiring.
Stood in the blazing sun for 10 mins
Enrolment service parade.
I can say that my boots overheated.
So did everyone else's
I should go sleep soon.
Too tired to stay up, eh.

Wife, and step kid/lover
HAHAHAHA
oh heyo.
I've been putting off blogging for a while.
Well, Saturday was Inana's b'day bash!
:D
It was actually really fun hahaha
especially the last hour where we all just laid down on the bed.
And Jan gave me such an awesome foot massage.
It's Ina's birthday today!
AND JOJO'S TOO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY INANA AND JOJO
i'm currently writing my stupid oral presentation thingy,
and I've chosen to do it all by myself.
My partners are Fum and Rachel Yap,
but yeah, I'd rather do it by myself.
Plus, my brother is a freaking Hitler pro.
Yes, we're doing our presentation on Hitler.
WOAH RIGHT
Hahaha,
today was pretty slack in school.
Filled with freaking awkwardness now.
(:
HAHAHA
I kinda like it.
Except I feel the awkwardness.
OK OMG I NEED TO DO THE SHITTY ORAL THINGY.
ARGH I'M LIKE ONLY AT THE INTRO

i had fun today.

(:

School sucked as always,

and Agnes was trying to figure out this riddle.

I can't get it at all ):

Hahaha,

uhm.

What else?

i don't really remember, actually.

I remember getting super hungry during geog/chem/ss.

but gosh, i must be really tired,

cause i honestly cannot recall anything.

I remember CIP though.

We left like half an hour earlier

cause we were about to crash at the table,

and my tutee was about to leave.

Bus-sed

walked to Fum's house.

Ger Tan was already there,

so we just started making the cake.

(Cake for Nana's party tmr! :D)

hahahaha so fun

had dindin at haato,

didn't have icecream though.

and now i'm finding album artwork for my ipod.

cause it's so naked without artwork.

But like,

i'm retarded at it,

and i'm probably not doing it correctly or something.

So, I'd appreciate any help.

I'm copy and pasting pictures into the artwork section.

HELP ME

goodnight

HAHAHAHA

i dunno if I posted this pic before,

but <3

:D

APRIL FOOOLS BABEH :D

it sucked.

Classes were supposed to switch classes with each other

and like prank the teachers that way.
Ms Cheng was sick and History was slack,

but we couldn't switch with 2M, cause their laoshi was already inside.

Lanie and Lisa tried to sneak in,

but the teacher saw them HAHAHA.

Anyway,

Had a very awkward recess.

I dunno lah,

no one was talking and it was so quiet,

everyone just stared at their food and looked away.

I hated it

I couldn't take it

I just left the table with Fum,

recess was ending anyway.

Nothing else happened till Speech.

We were in the library and we managed to find Teo Lee Lee's wedding pic.

OMG SHE WAS SO YOUNG

and she was super pretty!(:

Then Ms Yang didn't murder me when I told her I couldn't go for GB.

:D

Then we had assembly,

the woman was some forceful boring person who presented her stuff with sound effects.

It was awful.

Boring, awful and noisy,

cause well, she was screaming into the mic a few times.

I was so annoyed.

Like really really annoyed.

Oh and I look like some stupid nerdy fat fugly piece of manshit in my ezlink.

No one

NO. ONE. CAN. SEE. IT.

Close your eyes and make believe

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Ina!<3
Marissa Fum!<3
Geri Tan!<3
Tabitha Teo!<3

Forgetting all the memories

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Annamei&Winnie's Blogshop!
Amanda:D
Agnes Tay! HUNNYBUNZZSXSZXZ
Abigail Koh!
Andrea Gozali!
Audrey Goh! Jie:P
Angeline Wong!!
Abby Khoo!
Amadea Ng!
Becca Goh!
The Bala Household!
Constance!
Crystal Wong!
Christine!
Dahlia Yauwan!!
Esther Mak!
Esther Lee!
Gillian Peck!
GasichadBalas!
Ger Liau!!
Gasichad!
Janine Quek!
Jean Iau!
Keri Liu!!
Kimberly Tan!
Kimberly Tay!
Kang Shi!
Oh, Lara! HAHAHAHA
Li En!
Mango Mouse!
Melody Yu!
Natasha Hiorns!
Rachel Yap!
Shi Ying! My Biggest Fan
Sheryl and Tiff!
Sarah Ann!
Sara Sim!
Tiff!(:
Venetia Owyong!

Try to forget Love

Paramore (Hayley)
Katy Perry
Paramore Official Website
Chuck FF Page

Cause Love's forgotten me



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3. you can't be too careful anymore
4. we'll run from them
5. Turn it off, in all my spite
6. all i wanted was you
7. CASEY-NESS
8. Charles Carmichael always comes quickly
9. it's never been like that
10. you are my signal fire

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