/I ain't no hollaback girl
Thursday, February 26, 2009
HAHAHAHAHAA OMG
LIKE I'M SUPER HIGH RIGHT NOW.
HAHAHAHAHHAAHHA
I JUST SPENT LIKE
AN HOUR
TALKING TO TIFF AND GER
AND WE WERE TRYING TO COME UP WITH NAMES
FOR OUR STRIPPER SELVES.
I came up with
VINNIEMARTINI
COOL RIGHT?
it's mine!
GO JOIN THE FACEBOOK GROUP!
The Future Strippers Of The World!
I got the Britney pic (;
She's so hawtt.
Ger came up with Kiko El Chiquito for Tiff :D
HAHAH DAMN COOL LAH.
Oh and My Imaginary Penis' name is
KING KONG.
OMG RETARDED NIGHT :D
I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT.
HAHAHHAHAHAA
BRING IT ON, LANGUAGE ARTS.
VINNIE MARTINI WILL KICK YOUR ASS WITH HER SEXY POLEDANCING.
/one without a permenant scar
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Hello :D
GB was extremely entertaining today.
Hahaha :D
SELF DEFENCE BABY.
I got demonstrated on again.
Hahaha,
he twisted my arm
and made me fall onto my knees.
They hurt now ):
I now know how to get out of a hand hold.
(Picture shown above)
And uhhh..
I know how to defend myself from repeated punches.
He punched us all with boxing gloves.
It hurt.
):
We had to get into a crouching arm-to-face position
and he'd punch each of us.
Hahaha,
Rachel Lee was awesome.
She'd scream everytime he punched her.
My head hurt a little,
cause when he punched my arm on the side of my head,
i think it hit my head too ):
Hahahaa
Fun fun funnnnnnnn :D
I tried to do the hand thing with Angie,
but she was too afraid ):
Poor Angie.
Oh and during drill today,
that 5 minutes of drill.
I have proved myself wrong!
I'm even worse than the recruits.
Hah,
I've given up on drill.
The national drill comp peeps had to march in the rain.
It blended really well,
and it looked awesome.
I'm playing worship for two weeks in a row =\
worship was pretty messy today..
Ina said I was boring ):
I know I am hehe.
I'm sorry!
If like, I keep quiet and all,
I just really don't know what to say to anyone,
I swear that I'm not trying to be antisocial or anything.
I have nothing to talk about,
that's all.
):
I remember when Angie was still drumming,
she told me that once a musician screws up,
all eyes will be on you.
When I screw up,
I feel everyone's eyes on me.
But I laugh, shake my head,
and continue playing.
It sucks to screw up.
It's like,
at that very second you just mess up,
and there's nothing you can do about it
except feel embarrassed.
My heart thumps crazily immediately after I screw up.
I seriously can feel it.
It's so.. uncomfortable.
Anyway, I need to study with Lynette&Ger.
(:
Byebye dearest friends.
HISTORY IS FOR ASSSEESSSS
/tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
and did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?I love love love Drops Of Jupiter.
It's so sweet and it's really sad.
You've gotta understand the lyrics though
________
I'm trying to mug now (:
I feel confident.
Thank you, Lord! (:
I have to let people listen to DOJ RIGHT NOW,
OR I'LL DIE.
/you don't know me, you don't even care
Monday, February 23, 2009
Augustana - Boston
In the light of the sun, is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost,
eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed...
you said...
You don't know me,
you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me,
and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah
Essential yet appealed,
carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you...
they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care,
oh yeah, She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains...
oh yeah,
She said
I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over,
where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California,
I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...
oh yeah
Boston...
where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.
Let me go to Boston.
Right now.
________
I should be studying.
But I'm not.
I'm so disappointed in myself.
I'm destined to fail these common tests.
I have yet to start ANY revision.
It's all my fault.
I should be more dilligent in my studies.
How the hell does anyone study?!
I mean... It's just so hard.
Maybe I'll really fail at life then.
Because in Singapore
Life = Education
I can't do this shit.
You know,
I don't even know what the chapters to study are.
For every subject.
Except maybe maths or life science,
cause I decided to be smart for once and take it down.
Not smart enough to study it though.
Someone pissed me off in school today.
Urgh,
and for a really stupid reason too.
Anyway,
I'm still looking for old, awesome songs
so you should send me some, if you have any.
I have
A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
Drops Of Jupiter - Train
(Jukebox performed it before in MGS)
Linger - The Cranberries (From Click)
I found a new band,
it's called VersaEmerge.
They're signed to Fueled By Ramen as well.
FBR is like amazing for bands.
CIWWAF, Paramore and The Hush Sound are from FBR.
But the Paramore merch is cringe-worthy.
If only I could buy anything online without having to worry about shipping
and payment and all that crap.
Urgh.
I'll love anyone who buys Paramore stuff for my b'day or something.
Love as in,
LOVE.
/VersaEmerge
Hey'all
I got caught in the rain today...
We (My neighbour, Joline, and I) walked out to the "taxi stand"
with umbrellas and we still got awesomely wet =\
Then on the cab back,
I realised that I got a sms from my mum,
telling me that she was gonna pick me up.
Uhm.
Stupid me for not realising that she called me twice too.
OMG AND I DIDN'T PAY MY NEIGHBOUR FOR THE CAB
SHIT.
Anywayyy...
I have tuition in about 45mins,
and uhh, my tutor is actually tutoring my neighbour right now.
hahahah cool right!
we live right next to each other.
She's one year older than me.
we have the same maths tutor.
and we've known each other since i was P2, and she was P3.
We bus/cab home together most of the days of the week.
iCarly is one of the best shows on nick right now,
since Avatar ended already.
I hate hate hate that Edgar&Ellen show.
and all the other suckish ones,
like El Tigre.
Disney can kiss Nick's ass.
They lost it all when Nick started showing Avatar.
Avatar >>>> HSM, JonasSisters, CampNotRock.
I kinda posted a few secrets on parasecrets this week =\
no hate posts or anything.
But just to voice my thoughts anonymously.
If you wanna find it,
just to give you a hint,
I used the same picture as the one in this post.
Oh and other people swear alot,
sooo... cover your eyes. (:
Oh crap,
mum's scolding the maid outside ):
Poor thing.
She's really nice...
and I don't want her to leave.
OMG
ACES DAY TMR.
I DON'T HAVE TO DO (';
(sick, remember)
/you don't know me, you don't wear my chains
Saturday, February 21, 2009
I asked for love.
I asked for mercy.
I asked for patience.
but you're already all of these things.
I asked for love.
I asked for mercy.
I asked for patience.
but you're already all of these things.
oh you are... oh you are...
If I knew what I needed
If I knew what was good for me
I'd, I'd be down on my knees begging
Please please please
let your light shine bright inside of me
shine inside of me.
I know that you're already all of these things.
_____
Time to change my blog song to this.
It's 2minutes long
and it's the Paramore Miracle Outro.
It's so amazing.
(They're talking about God, btw)
I did leave out a few parts.
_____
I was sick again today.
Had to skip my drums for the second week in a row,
and had to skip Fusion D:
But my fever is gone now.
It's really on and off.
I went to the doctor's today,
he told me that it might be a viral infection
instead of a bacterial infection.
Both sound bad either way =\
But it's nothing too serious anyway.
I need songs,
like those old, popular songs.
Long forgotten but awesome songs.
I want them man,
I'm trying to think of some.
Ina and I were being retarded last night (:
She drew me on msn,
and I uploaded all of them on facebook :D
hahaha,
we started drawing alot of other stuff too.
Like dinosaurs.
And she drew a soldier boy.
reminds me of Soulja Boy.
HAHAHA,
it's a real soldier boy.
A soldier,
boy.
He's cute (;
and he's now my FB profile pic.
I'm now going to eat a cake.
bb, baby.
/we're gonna make damn sure
Friday, February 20, 2009
Cuteness.
OH MY JOSH,
IT'S ANOTHER JOSHUA :D
(all the Joshuas in the world are irresistible)
_____
Hahahaha.
Today was umm.
pretty slack for me.
Cause I suddenly got this really high fever
after/during the art test which was first period.
And this fever lasted from 9 - 10.40,
where Fum, Agnes, Tabitha and Rachel Yap convinced me to go to the sick bay.
So Fum, Agnes and Rachel brought me down.
The bed was super duper comfortable :D
It's so bouncyy.
I slept for an hour or so,
till about 11.40 when recess ended
and I went up for lessons.
I had maths, then 5 mins of Geog before school ended.
Didn't go for swim meet for obvious reasons.
I made my brother skip his uni tutorial to come fetch me home.
THANK YOU KOR :D
you're awesome.
I was super cranky and sleepy,
so I think I snapped at him alot.
Sorry Kor (:
So came home,
watched TV and ate lunch.
Bathed and used the comp for abit,
then I took a panadol and went to sleep.
Woke up at 6.30.
bathed again
(I woke up all sweaty ):)
ate din din
watched Avatar (:
Then I went to do my work.
Tuition homework,
for my tuition right now.
She was supposed to come at 8 but it's 8.30 now.
Hmm..
Anyway,
Ina just told me that Olsen won the swim finals!
WHOOO :D
I used to be so loyal to Olsen,
but now, not so much.
I remember in P3,
Fum and Jolyn were in Jackson,
and I was the only olsenite in our little group.
):
Then the jacksonites started chanting "Olsen sucks" over and over again,
during this captains ball tournament thing.
and I cried D:
HAHAHA.
I don't know why either.
Watched BenButton yesterday!
Awesome awesome awesome show.
It's seriously awesome.
Like amazing.
Brad Pitt is so handsome! :D
And Cate Blanchett is an awesome actress.
I cried like at every sad scene lah.
Especially when he left her and his daughter.
D:
My Yee Yee didn't cry at all.
I would like to watch alot of other movies that I'm way too lazy to name right now.
Oh and I want to get tackled to the floor once again :D
/i just wanna break you down so badly
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Joshua Farro...
What are you staring at?
_______
Today was soo fun :D
GB has never been so awesome before
(fine, fine, it has)
We had this Ladie's Self Defense course.
This guy is like a super pro
uhh fighter?
And he was telling us about the dangers of guys and rapists.
Ooohhh, so scary ):
Then we got to the practicing part.
I was telling Ina, Toh and someone... Charmaine, i think.
That I would be so honoured if he would demonstrate his cool karate moves on me.
So when he called for a volunteer,
Ina stared at me.
SO I RAISED MY HAND (;
Hahaha he told me to walk towards him,
and he would portray the kidnapper/rapist/sick paedophile
So I walked..
AND BAM,
my face was covered,
nose was smashed with a hand (not that painful :D)
and I fell head first onto the mat.
Woah.
He pinned me down with his knee,
by pressing it against the side of my head.
Toh and Theo said that he kicked the back of my knees,
but it was damn fast, I didn't feel it.
I was laughing throughout the demonstration.
Oh and second demonstration.
He would go from the back.
Basically the same thing,
mouth covered this time,
pulled back.
Fall.
Pinned down.
But my earring was a little out of place,
and it was hurting alot when his knee was on my ear.
=\
I staggered back to where everyone was sitting.
Then Rachel went up next.
he choked her to the floor,
like,
just grabbed her neck and pushed her to the floor.
Her face was.. priceless
HAHAHA DAMN FUNNY.
After that, paired up
and practiced our inconspicious hand positions,
Theo and I would rotate the attacker and defender.
Supposed to crouch slightly and put your hands forward
(for defender)
and attackers were supposed to try and grab the defender's throat.
Hahaha :D
So funnnnnn.
Looking forward to next week!
:D
Oh and my small group was hilarious.
Ms Tian is really nice (:
Laughed like craaap.
/when I crack that whip, everybody gonn' trip
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
BLOGGER IS BEING A BITCH AGAIN.
BLOODY UPLOAD MY PHOTOS, YOU STUPID PIECE OF SHIT WEBSITE.
Today was ok, I guess.
ALOT OF LAUGHTER.
like alot.
Cause right,
during LA, I was put in a group with Daniele, Agatha and Cara
Supposed to do something on Featured articles
We decided (I decided :D) to do Musical Bands
So we started naming bands
We got down Paramore, The Ting Tings,
Evanescence, Coldplay, Blink 182, Sum 41 and alot more
Eventually cancelled out everything except Paramore.
(everyone will find me useful in this one)
(:
Agatha suggested interviewing the hardcore fans (she looks at me),
the not so hardcore fans (she looks at Fum)
and the h8ters (she looks around).
We decided to title it
"Pop ROCK goes my heart"
from Music and Lyrics.
that one is "Pop! Goes my heart"
:D
COOL RITE.
Ms Gan cringed at the name ):
And she almost didn't approve cause she didn't like rock music.
):
Heck,
then during LS, I told Alicia a very very stupid joke.
Copyrighted Theodora, btw. (:
Then it turned into a lame/racist joke spree.
And it continued to lunch,
where Theodora continued to feed stupid jokes to me.
wow, we were so high.
Just laughing and swinging around the quadrangle.
OH OH,
I TELL YOU A JOKE NOW :D
Copyrighted Theo again.
Which animal has the biggest boobs?
............
............
............
............
A ZEBRA.
GEDDIT GEDDIT?
WOW, I DIED WITH THAT ONE.
Theo somehow managed to hear boots as boobs,
so when Michelle ask her if she brought her boots,
she collapsed in laughter.
Literally.
Poor Theo ):
Then went for worship practice.
Not too bad =\
I blanked out with all the drum beats man.
I want to pon tmr.
):
_______
"Somehow, everything's gonna fall right into place"
Everytime I feel like dying,
this line goes through my head.
And I'd feel reassured.
Maybe I won't feel all that better, but it does help me.
Cause as I feel so alone right now.
Somewhere out there,
someone else is in a way worse situation than I am.
And I just have to slap myself, suck it up and keep going
with the help of God and Paramore.
They are here for me, and nothing will change that fact.
But right now, I just feel like shite.
Good luck in surviving the night, Ven.
You may need it.
/i let my heart win
Monday, February 16, 2009
Why is everyone so moody today?If it's the weather,sure maybe that's fine.I don't know what to say to anyone.Cause well, I'm afraid people will snap at me.I just... really truly don't know what to say.every moment i spend with you guys is so awkward for me.I have to constantly rack my brain for any random thing that I could say,which obviously will make me look like some unfunny bitch.oh wait, I am an unfunny bitch.Hmm.. who knew?everyone did =\That's why I'm so thankful for my friends.They have to put up with me,the loser in the group.And I don't even show my love on V day.I'm so dependent on them,that I'll fall if any of them just ignore me.One of my friends just told me that she's pissed with certain people's attitudes.Maybe I agree sometimes.
/a thief, a whore and a liar.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I believe in you,
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I have to be with you,
to live, to breathe
You're taking over me.
---------
My parents went overseas this morning.
I slept through their departure =\
I feel really guilty for that hahaha.
I was just so tired from camp.
But yeah, excuses, excuses.
EVERYONE IS DAOING ME.
It sucks to be dao-ed.
It really does suck.
I feel so unloved ):
OH EM JAY and I told EHA that I felt so loved~
sigh.
I just did my Tiger Shark.
Joe is awesum :D
I want Joe to save me from a shark attack.
Unless he's some salty sea dog
with the beard
and the piratey look/smell.
I like Pirates, but I don't like pirates themselves.
Ya dig?
HAHAHA, sorry, always wanted to say that. (:
I want a Josh Farro in shining armour to save me.
(:
Oh the ridiculous dreams that I have.
I'm listening to EV again!
They're amazinggggggg.
I love them as much as I love Paramore, you know?
Their songs cheer me up too.
My Yee Yee is staying over tonight
I'm supposed to be sleeping =\
HECK.
She doesn't have to know.
IGNORANCE IS BLISS.
Not like I'm doing wrong..
No, seriously.
I'm not doing anything.
Tabitha tried to convince me that she doesnt know how to buy porn.
I'm convinced (:
She's way too innocent.
HAHAHA
TABITHA,
YOU'RE TOO INNOCENT!
:D
Crystal Wong, don't kill me ):
TIFF IS MY POPTART RETART! :D
WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO
get ready for some sim-babymaking.
HAHAHAHA
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS.
I'M SORRY I DIDN'T GET ANYTHING FOR ANYONE
It's cause I have so many friends,
and I have no idea who to give the gifts too.
I'm too populaaaaaaar~ :D
NONO, I'M KIDDING.
I love all my friends,
and I would die if any of you guys left me.
Please don't leave me
(I see you, GT and Ina)
):
MY HEARRRTTTT IS YOOOOUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS!
that's my valentines gift to you
/this love has taken it's toll on me
Saturday, February 14, 2009
"can i go to ____ hotel to play with my seniors?"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA
HAHHAAHAHAAHAHHAHHAHAA
In the cheering of GT:
WOOOHOOOHOOOOOOO!
Hey'all
I shall blog about the awesome awesome GB camp!
:D
Day 1 was pretty cool
We played loads of violent games :D
And I earned the nickname of "Mystical Unicorn".
COOL RITE
Squad Identity was a Dunce cap.
You know, the pointy party hats.
It was strawberry shortcake design!
yeah well
then we had dunno what, dunno what.
Sec2s had to eat dinner while everyone else bathed
cause we needed to prepare the campfire! :D
We had two dudes from BB to come teach us
(One of them was wearing a GB shirt)
So we prepared the wood,
stacked, arranged and watered the bricks.
Then the squads finally came down.
Then CAMPFIRE BABY!
Sang loads of songs.
Oh and AHE really pissed me off here.
FIND YOUR OWN SPACE TO SIT, BITCH.
but the whole thing was really cool.
I had to sing Love Makes The World Go Round
for the squad thing "What is the meaning of love to you"
I think.
We used Powerpuffgirls,
as in seriously.
We dressed our juniors up as Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup.
and I was the only who knew the lyrics..
Soooooooooo.....
YEAH.
What else, what else.
I still couldn't bathe after campfire,
cause I had to run with Dr Tan at 11pm (:
it was around 10.20 already
So we just set up our sleeping bags and stuff.
DR WILLIAM TAN IS AWESOME!
We sang for him! :D
THEN WE RAN WITH HIM!
He's was so cool (:
Yeah, so I bathed at around 11.30pm
Washed hair anyway.
So damn sweaty and all. Ugh.
Hahaha SO THEN WE TRIED TO SLEEP.
But Joan, Sarah and I were so freaking high.
Sarah and I were laughing soooo hard.
When the people off-ed the lights,
there was this blue glowing light.
So we decided to start quoting Finding Nemo
"ARE YOU MY CONSCIENCE?"
"HEY CONSCIENCE, AM I DEAD?"
S: "I SEE A LIGHT!"
V: "NOOO, DON'T GO TOWARDS IT"
J: "DON'T GO, YOU'RE NOT DEAD!"
"I'M GONNA TOUCH IT"
"I'M GONNA GETCHA!"
Oh we laughed so hard.
Then Angie scolded us for making so much noise (:
She sat behind our sleeping bags and vowed to stay there till we slept.
but she started laughing along with us (:
Hahaha espescially when Sarah went
"I think I bruised my ribs!"
She just died there and then.
Oh how I love Angie! HAHAHA XD
So we finally fell asleep at around 12.30?
AHE'S TALKING TO ME,
DAMN DAMN DAMN.
ARHJFSHGJSAGHSE
NOOO NOOO
Sorry,
back to camp.
Woke up at 6,
slept till 6.30 again.
washed up,
Quiet time was fun (:
Then breakfast.
Then Squad Challenge.
Very very hard games.
but entertaining.
I was so so sleepy till I stoned throughout the first half
uhhhh
I'M LOST
but we cleaned toilets,
We won second place
OUR CHEER IS AWESOME, MAN
I'm not typing it out.
Too bad (:
/all eyes on me in the center of the ring, just like a circus
Friday, February 13, 2009
HEY,
I'm in the library now (:
Supposed to research on Monet.
But there's like nothing to do..
I hate art ):
Stephanie Tang is beside me and reading this post.
HI STEPHANIE!
Hahaha
I'm bored.
Are you bored?
She's bored too..
Ugh.
Mrs Chan is looking at us now. I think.
Maybe she knows that I'm blogging D:
Other people are doing their work!
EVEN FUM D:
AMAZING RIGHT.
This like the last time I will blog till Sat,
where I will most likely blog about camp.
GB camp today.
I brought my lovely Octi to sleep on (:
Ina and Angie are gonna save me from AHE,
isn't that great?
Such sacrifice.
Hahahaaaaaaaaa...
No music for 2 days.
It's depressing.
Uhh.. Bye now (:
/they're not horses, they're unicorns
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Well, uh, blogger is being a total bitch,
cause it's not uploading my photos.
So I'll just be photoless ):
Today was pretty cool I guess.
Fire drill right smack in the middle of LA.
Skipped our little oral presentation thing (:
Ms Gan was pretty pissed about it.
There, there, Ms Gan
Just spent like an hour in the carpark,
looking at each other's wallets.
Comparing concert tix.
My Ting Tings one beat the FOB one :D
Rachel Yap and Amanda finally saw Fum's ez link.
The prawn picture :D
so cute!
I have camp tmr,
and I don't really want to go ):
I go for the campfire,
which the sec 2's are in charge of.
Oh, I finished my Commonwealth Essay yesterday,
but I didn't pass it up.
Sucks for me, damn.
Special thanks to Ms Lim for vetting it for me.
(:
Hope you liked it.
Bye bye all, I need to pack.
But i'll pack later
/Watcha gonna do? Watcha gonna do when we put bubbles on you!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Apparently,
this was Hayley on her myspace when Paramore was still really small.
Ifindthatsocute.
RACHEL YAP THNKS JOSHIE IS CUTE :D
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
SO DOES TABITHA TEO!
WOOHOOO!
_______
Commonwealth essays suck D:
We're not even entering the contest
):
Why, LA teachers, WHY?!
Oh and I'm writing about
"What I Don't Want To Be When I Grow Up"
But after reading Ger Tan's essay,
I feel so depressed ):
GER TAN'S BETTER GET SELECTED OR I'LL SUE.
I really don't want to be a teacher.
So I'll write about that I guess.
I smell like kerosene.
My hands, at least.
The sec 2 GB girls had to prepare the firewood for campfire! :D
it was really cool.
Thanks to the guides who helped us.
(Didn't see Cloudeea though)
My hands were black and oily! D:
The wood was very splintery,
I wouldn't be surprised if I have splinters right now.
OH OH
THIS IS THE FIRST PART OF MY ESSAY
and frankly, its the only part I have right now.
HAHAHA
“Class, please quieten down! Stop talking! Listen up, now!”
The class erupted in loud laughter at the teacher’s frantic pleas to keep the class under control. The poor teacher grew red in the face from being ridiculed by her very own students. The students who show her no respect, the students who take advantage of her good nature, she was so afraid of them. It was only her third day of teaching in the school, and she had not gotten over her nervousness. She knew that she would never be able to. Her gentleness, however, could overpower all her anger, embarrassment and irritation. She could never scold anyone in her life.
This was the most probable thing to happen if I ever decided to become a teacher.
__
UPDATE ON IT L8TER
/wipe the tears from your eyes, wipe your tears away
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I've failed as a daughter
I'm sorry for your hurt
I'm sorry that you had to suffer in silence
I knew that God would make it all better
I'm glad that it's so much better now
We can restart our relationship
I don't want you to feel like you're losing me
I've never seen you so broken.
everything's fine now.
Everything is alright.
I'm sorry that you wanted to do that
i'm sorry that you even thought of that.
I'LL BE THE BEST DAUGHTER EVER,
YOU'LL SEE! (;
/you made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole
Monday, February 9, 2009
I can't even walk past you without you just staring at me.
I can't look at you without your hurtful words just ringing in my head.
My mind keeps flashing back to when you screamed at me.
I just want to know why you feel so threatened.
Right now, if you think that by preventing me from going to
church is going to let me spend more time with you, you're wrong.
Because you are driving the wedge between us.
You're causing your own pain,
and you're causing hurt to everyone of your family members.
I can't even compare school stress to this.
Because this is what's really tearing me apart, right here.
I pray for you,
before I sleep,
when I do anything.
I pray that God will help you find your way once again,
that he'll touch your heart like he touched mine,
that he'll help you through your pain.
He will light your path till the very end and guide you along.
You don't have to feel alone,
cause I'm always here and so is God.
God bless you.
I hope you sleep well tonight,
and you'll have some peace from this crisis.
I love you
/And I can't pretend that I don't see this
I finally know now,
why you're so angry.
Why you're so broken,
and I'm sorry that you twisted the words into something so horrible.
Yes, I agree that we should love the Lord more,
but He will not drive me from you.
He will make me love you more.
I understand now why you did what you did.
I just hope you'll come to forgive me and my brother
and you'll come to know how great the Lord really is.
You don't have to be jealous
because I will always be your filial daughter,
I will be there for you with the help of God.
I know you have no chance of reading this,
but I just wanted to say it.
Get it out of my system.
Churches don't take children away from our parents.
They help us learn about God,
so that we can love you so much more than we do.
I love God
and I love you.
Nothing will change that fact.
/somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I'm grounded.
Don't bother asking me to go anywhere with anyone.
You know sometimes,
you can feel like you wish you've never been born to your parents?
You wish your friends' parents were yours?
That's what I'm feeling now.
Turns out my parents are feeling the same way about me.
While my mum practically disowned me and my brother,
she also banned me from going to church.
Last night, after church,
my parents told me that they don't want me to attend church anymore.
Why?
They think I'm disrupting family nights,
because church ends at 8.30.
They think that I'm choosing church over family.
They think that I don't know my priorities.
My priority is God.
Family comes next.
I'm not choosing church over family,
I'm choosing God over family,
because God is family.
This morning, when I went to church,
I manage to make it into the small group,
when my mum called me.
She screamed at me and told me to cab home immediately.
What else could I do but obey?
I got home.
I found my dad standing over my brother,
who was crying.
(No, he wasn't abusing anyone)
I hugged him,
and both of us cried together,
We prayed and prayed while our mum screamed and scolded us.
Then we prayed somemore.
I pitied my dad cause he'd have to deal with her bad mood.
I decided to just lock my door and collapse into bed.
Where I called dear Ina.
Thanks love, I'm sorry I can't go to your church anymore.
It was around 12.30 when I got into bed.
Lazed there till 2
and I took a shower to wash away any more tears.
Fum smsed me.
Thank you too Fum (:
I love you guys.
I have maths tuition in three minutes,
my parents are out.
My brother is sleeping.
I know the Lord will help us through this family crisis.
Thank you, Lord.
/i want to hold the hand that holds the world
Saturday, February 7, 2009
James 5:13-16 "Is any one of you in trouble?
He should pray
Is anyone happy?
He should sing songs of praise
Is any one of you sick?
He should call the elders of the church to pray over him
and anoint him with the oil in the name of the Lord.
And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well;
the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven.
Therefore, confess your sins to each other and pray for each other
so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is
powerful and effective"
________
One of the most powerful things has happened to me today
God has healed me of my [illness not mentioned here]
(Or I hope so, but I know that He has)
The woman prayed for Me, Ina, Amadea and Estelle
and we were all healed.
Our physical injuries are gone,
and it's because God has healed us.
I won't deny that I cried my eyes out when she was praying for me.
because I could feel God working on my illness,
I could feel his hands healing my body,
driving the illness out.
The woman had a vision while she prayed for me:
God was feeding me the bread of life,
and He was feeding it straight to my mouth.
I witnessed two girls collapse to the floor,
because God had touched them and their hearts.
They fainted to the floor and cried together.
It was an incredible and amazing sight.
I never ever want to forget the feeling that I had,
I never want to forget this awesome experience.
Thank you, Lord.
For everything you have done for me, my friends and my family.
______
OH and I can't believe my parents.
They want me to stop going church on Sat.
It's my life, not yours.
Our so called "family nights" aren't even family nights.
I don't care,
I'm still going.
/i love the way you tug on top of me
Friday, February 6, 2009
They went to China!
And they went to a nursery!
The Farro bros of Paramore
:D
_______
SAY NO TO CAMPS
SAY NO TO ANIMAL ABUSE
SAY YES TO LESBIAN WEDDINGS
SAY YES TO JOSHAYLEY
!
I have forgotten what I wanted to blog about.
Oh yeah.
Suppose to do a quiz =\
Stealing from Ina's blog now
1.What's the connection between you & the last person that called you?
Angeline Wong
Awesome senior from GB :D
[And my awesome pastor]
2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
On the plane, in school
Wouldn't turn off in school,
but I share a locker with a prefect.
No choice ):
3. What happened yesterday night?
I napped till 9.30pm,
had KFC for dinner,
used the comp till 12.30.
Slept.
4. When did you last cry?
This week,
when GT told me that she was leaving.
Hysterical
5. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Gardenia Bread!
:D
OH AND FRENCH LOAF, MAN.
Those from delifrance!
6. What do you want in your life right now?
GT to stay,
no one to migrate anywhere,
Paramore to be my best buds,
Joshayley,
Good academic results.
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
And when it rains,on this side of town it touchesI carry the gay umbrella,
it just broke thoughbut hood if I happen to wear a hoodie or something.
8. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
A silk, soft blanket.
Gillian Peck's new stuffed bear,
soft soft pillows :D
And and and, three bolsters!
Might need a queen sized bed now =\
9. What bottom are you wearing now?
Some gay pink shorts.
;P
10. Whats the nicest text in your inbox say?
I don't remember,
but one that stood out was Ger Tan's
"Mine's sexy and black too.
Yay for slim, sexy and slender black phones!"
Slim, sexy and slender black phones, indeed.
11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
Hope not =\
I like to act like a bitch sometimes though,
no, it ain't pms.
That seems to complicate stuff here and there,
but it's always resolved.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nooooppeee,
all me :D
13. What was the last movie you caught?
PONYO! :D
14. What are you proud of?
I started writing my FF again! :D
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Refer to Q10
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
NAVIGATE ME THROUGH YOUR BODY,NAVIGATE MEEEEE!I LOVE THE WAY YOU TUG ON TOP OF ME,SO NAVIGATE MEEEEE!Uhhmm..
It should be
Cute Is What We Aim For - Navigate Me
17. Do you have any nicknames?
Ven, Vivi, Vi, V, Vennie, Auntie, Senior (Ashley calls me that)
:D
Most people just call me Ven though.
18. What does your last received text message say?
Ina - "wth>:( I just bloody missed my bus... wth"
there there, Ina ):19. What time did you go to bed last night?
tuh-well-vuh thur-tee
20. Are you currently happy?
Nope,
my Coke bottle says so.
21. Who gives you best advice?
Friends?
My sister,
My mum,
sometimes a teacher.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
I'm scared of doing that.
For some reason,
I hate whipped cream! D:
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
I does not remember.
But I don't think I talked to anyone.
antisocialnessftw24. Is anything bugging you right now?
My swollen swollen eye,
and the fact that Mrs Chan has the impression that I dig my eye =\
25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Ina, talking about AHE(:
26. Do you wear toe socks?
Nope,
2 kewl 4 that bitchesxszxzz
Ok I suck at be ahlian-ny,
but seriously,
NO.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Myself,
I lost the phone =\
28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes,
When JFarro got with Tabitha Richards.
STAY AWAY FROM MY MAN!
29. What annoys you most in a person?
People who try to speak English,
but just can't.
People who try to be writers,
but suck at English
(No sense of grammar/spelling)
oh and stalkerish bitches.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes.
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Uhh.. No.
SAY NO TO DRUGS MAN!
32. What is the colour of your room?
IT'S THE COLOURS OF THE RAAAINNBOOOWWW!
Nah, it's white.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollarS?
Hmm...
34. Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
Sometimes
35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
Me.
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Tabitha! I want to hug her again! (:
37. What do you want to say to the person you have a crush on?
"YES DAMN IT, I WILL MARRY YOU!"
38. Do you have a life?
I would definitely hope so,
but I know I have more of a life than
some people...39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
I thought Yueniang died in the fire, and when she got pushed off the boat.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
It's a brilliant Paramore song
and the ending lyrics are very deep.
I love it.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
OMG
AMADEA AND INA
I STILL REMEMBER IT SO CLEARLY
I forgot what we were doing though
LAST NIGHT, MAN
42. Last time you smiled?
5 seconds ago
I'm a happy person.
43. Have you changed this year?
Hope not,
I've become more moody and sleepy though.
.44. What are you listening to right now?
Kaiser Chiefs - Good Days Bad Days
Nice song.
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Ina, Tabitha
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Half closed.
I'm beauty sleep deprived man.
47. Is there a quote you live by?
Uh,
Fum's sexist quote! :D
AND AND GER'S SMELLY QUOTE!
AND AND AND HAYLEY'S FALLING QUOTE!
AND MY PROCRASTINATING ONE!
Repectively:
"Bella's such a sexist!"
"The Old one was Smelly"
"Sometimes you need a good fall to know where you stand"
"Procrastination is the way to life"
47. Do you want someone you can't have?
Yes,
but honestly,
I'd give him up for
her49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Drums, babeh.
Guitar too! (:
50. What was the worst idea you've had in the week?
Uhh..
being nice to AHE
51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
I forgot.
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
yes, engagement is a dream
Marriage will be better! :D
I'M GONNA GET A DIAMOND RING! :D
53. What song describe your love life?
Accidentally In Love - Counting Crows
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
HAHAHAHHAHA
HAHAHAHAHHAA
HAHAHAHHAA
ohmygosh, Ina! XD
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
He doesn't know I exist,
but everyone knows that he exists
55. Who always makes you laugh?
Anything makes me laugh,
I like to laugh.
Not laughing is for wimps.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yeah,
but I'll be embarrassed when I speak it.
Cause it'll be so damn awful
57. Are you blond?
To smart to be blond
unlike someone
58. Whats your middle name?
Don't have one,
but I want it to be
Vivien AHE Farro
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Drums and church! :D
Oh and trying out Madea's cell! :D
60. What do you think you are like?
I'm like a unicorn
61. Who will you choose to die with?
I want to die with my husband.
I want to die with him on the same day,
when we're both old and weathered,
together in each other's arms.
62. Where have you been today?
School and CIP
63. What game do you play often?
iSketch! :DD
64. Who are you missing right now?
I am missing my sister?
65. If you've to choose between A friend & A loveR, who will you choose?
It depends,
is that friend a close friend?
Am I serious with that lover?
66. What are you doing right now?
Watching Rugrats,
there's nothing on at night ):
67. Which primary school are you from?
Monkey Gorilla School PINEAPPLES!
68. Name 3 colours that you like.
Red
Blue
Orange
69. What emotion you like to show?
I like to radiate happiness,
I like to radiate sadness sometimes too
70. What is life to you?
Friendship
Love
God
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Rant to friends.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Geraldine Tan! :D
73. Who do you admire the most?
Honestly?
Esther Lee.
I don't know how she does it!
She's so balanced.
74. Which month are you born in?
April(:
75. How are you feeling right now?
Sleepy
Bored
Tired
Jealous of Ger Tan's awesome commonwealth essay
76. What is the time now?
11.56 p.m.
but I've spent an hour on this quiz.
Thanks, Mr Quiz.
77. Where are you now?
Singapore, family room.
78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
I would like to dye my hair streaks of light blue.
79. Why are you doing this test?
She&Him -
"And this is nooooottt a test,
no this is nooootttt a test.
Taking chances never made sense,
Anyway!"
80. What do you do when you're moody?
I snap at people and blog about snapping at people.
81. At which age you wish to get marry?
28,
but you have to agree that 14 is the ideal age, man.
I would like to have kids when I'm 30
82. Who is most important to you?
Family
Friends
God
83. Do you think you have enough confidence?
NEVER
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
G+B
Family
Jie&Kor
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
A rainbow is an amazing sign.
86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
To have neverending dreams coming true
87. What is your goal for this year?
To do as well as the rest of G+B so that I can be with them next year.
And maybe take the same classes as them or something.
DOUBLE SCIENCE?
TRIPLE SCIENCE?
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
I HATE PEOPLE WITH NO SENSE OF ENGLISH.
WHO MADE THIS QUIZ,
STUPID BITCH.
Oh and maybe.
89. What do you love?
Friends,
Family,
God.
HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THIS?
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
I watched An Inconvenient Truth.
OF COURSE I KNOW THAT IT'S GLOBAL WARMING.
91. What feeling you hate the most?
I hate the feeling of emotional pain.
It's just so painful.
But I don't cut or anything.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes.
93. Do you believe in God?
Yes, always.
94. Who cares for you the most?
I hope that it's my family and friends?
I know God will always care for me
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
ARGH
REFER TO Q89
96. Do you hate this quiz?
Starting to.
97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
It's a secret
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
I'll just kill myself
99. What if your stead two-timed you?
I'm going to be scary now.
I will stalk him,
murder him
and be psychotic
100. Who would u sabo next?
You.
_______
I'm never doing a quiz like that ever again in my life
/i'm creeping your way and these sheets aren't stopping me
Thursday, February 5, 2009
GRAB YOUR MOPEDS AND LET'S JET!
you've got a sexy crack,
wish I could smack that crack.
Who cares about your girlfriend's rack?
I just can't stop staring at your cute little crack
- Rainbow
DAMIEN RICHARDSON LOBBYTOZ
_____
Hey tharr..
I'm listening to You Don't Know Me by Ben Folds feat. Regina Spektor
Awesome song. (:
I'd like to listen to more Ben Folds songs, but I don't wanna.
Ina just went to bed.
I can't believe my wedding day is in a week! (:
Our pastor is Angeline Wong.
And my maid of honor is Ger Tan :D
G+B will be our bridesmaids.
Amadea can sulk while her lover gets married to me.
HAHAHAHAHA.
I napped from 6pm to 9.30 pm
3 and a half hours baby! :D
My naps are always freakishly long
but I rarely nap, so it's fine.
I'm still sleepy though.
My eye is swollen again.
AAGGAAAINN.
GB was fun yesterday.
Can't wait for the self defence courses to begin.
Physical badge! :D
I can beat people up, i know i can.
CIP tmr.
AHE is weird, funny and stupid at the same time.
I don't want it at my wedding!
I'm looking for quizzes,
the one Ina just did is way too long
(and stupid)
NAVIGATE ME, THROUGH YOUR BODY
One of the best sex songs in history.
"I love the way, you tug on top of me"
CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR.
Friends are stressed, so am I.
Stupid Amadea,
DON'T TELL MY BROTHER ABOUT MY NAUGHTY NAUGHTY THINGS.
Oh and Love makes the world go round!
SEC TWO GB GIRLS ARE IN CHARGE OF CAMPFIRE WHOOO!
I'm not exactly looking forward to camp =\
INA SHOULD KNOW WHYY..
AHE!
Bury it, I won't let you bury it.
I won't let you smother it.
Kaiser Chiefs. Are. Cool :D
LOVE'S NOT A COMPETITION.
But I'm definitely winning?
I like Paramore's cover of that song.
Kewl.
TAP TAP REVENGE IS AMAZING.
I have so many songs now :D
/they let us play with markers, but i keep trying to draw infinity
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Oh well,
I guess everyone knows what's going on with GT now.
I won't act like you're dead and that we're dying without you
(Well, we will die without you, but.. not yet)
And Amadea keeps telling me that Ina's moving in December or something.
My closest friends are leaving me! D:
Fum, don't you EVER EVER EVER MOVE ANYWHERE
I was told that my childhood friend was moving to Aussie,
and that I should join her in Trinity.
If Singapore becomes unbearable,
I might consider it.
Right now,
I have a constant battle within myself
(Wow, I sound like Aang or Zuko..)
I can't decide on some things in live,
that will definitely impact me in a way or another.
Oh and if anyone was offended by my previous post in any way
(Like thinking that I'm blaming God for GT's moving or something)
I'm not.
I'm just.. frustrated that things are about to change so drastically.
I thought I could look at the positive side for GT's leaving.
Well, for one, I would definitely be closer to Ger Tan.
Maybe I'll be even closer to God.
I realise this is something like what happened in The Shack.
Mack's daughter was taken away from him
and God helped him through so much during that period.
Oh and I'm not saying GT's gonna die or something..
But it feels so similiar,
in a way.
Maybe I'll get to go to Ger Tan's house when she's gone
and I'll get to spend a weekend with God, Jesus and Sarayu too (:
That'd be really cool HAHA
My braces are killing me.
I can't eat without wincing in pain!
Porridge didn't even help.
Fish noodle soup for dinner.
Let's hope I can eat it.
/a jagged pulse runs through my veins
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Just when things couldn't get any worse,
it did.
Why did this have to happen?
I would like to scream my lungs out and just kill something right now.
I know things happen for a reason,
by why did You have to take her from me?
It'll be so different.
I just cried my eyes out,
and looked like a total fool in front of my auntie
but I couldn't help it.